I am tired…
Tired of having to overthink even the easiest of tasks like picking up groceries or visiting a store…
Tired of our world full of fear, confusion, judgement, and anger…
Tired of hearing about the “new normal” that is anything but normal…
Tired of trying to protect my family and our freedoms when there are no clear answers…
Just tired… emotionally… mentally… spiritually… physically… tired.
I’m not one to post my thoughts often, especially if it would likely be a sensitive subject. I have always despised confrontation, and avoid it at {almost} all costs, even when I have strong convictions about a topic. I long to be “free to be me”…free to not worry about what everyone else is thinking or doing…free to make my decisions and stand by them! I do my best to do “me” and pray daily that if I am doing “me” wrong, that God would show me and change my heart to see what part of “me” needs to be changed. But it isn’t easy! In fact, it is downright exhausting.
Over these last few “social media” years, and especially over the last few longgg months of 2020, I have quickly learned that, even in our free country {that I am oh! so thankful for}, it’s becoming increasingly impossible to feel “free to be me.” Everyone has strong opinions about everything.
In a world so quick to judge…in a world where the only right opinion is the one that agrees with you…in a world where everything is offensive…where there are more grey areas than black and white, how does one decide how to be your own person confidently and unapologetically?
I don’t know about you, but it is just plain exhausting {like 104% tired!}. I am learning and trying so hard to remember that I have an audience of ONE in God…He is ultimately the only one I answer to. And sometimes, in the quietness of a moment at home, I feel that peace where I am no longer worried about what others think about me or my family’s decisions, but it is such a short moment…nothing but a glimpse just out of my grasp, as life pulls me back toward people, community, and world, and all of their opinions.
In today’s world, do you truly feel “free to be you” or do you feel oppression for lack of conformity?
