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It’s No Wonder We Are Crazy

marsha0727 — Sat, 25 Jan 2020 00:47:54 +0000

Though my kids may disagree since I was born before the internet, I don’t consider myself “old”. But it seems that in my short 35 years of life, I’ve seen so many facts change to fiction (and vice versa), that I don’t even know what to believe many times. Yes, I get that we are always learning new things…and “when we know better, we do better”…I totally get it. But thinking about it makes my head spin. It’s no wonder we are crazy!

A few examples…

Eat more grains. Oh, no! Don’t eat any grains. But wait, maybe we do need grains, just use them sparingly. Fats? Sparingly of course! But wait, here’s some that are “healthy” fats.

Technology has come a long way! Make sure you’re teaching your kids how to use it, so they can be successful in the workplace. Don’t let your kids have technology…it causes ADHD and a myriad of other things. We should go back to the dark ages before we had technology.

Shop on the outside aisles of the grocery store for healthy living. Oh, but you really should avoid red meats. And not too many fruits…actually only eat berries, the rest are bad for you.

Give your kids options to explore extracurricular activities, so they can find their passion. Do you really think your kids need so much “extra”?? When we were young, we didn’t get to do all that…we just played outside all day with kick-the-can and mud pies.

Don’t work outside of the home. Your place is in the home teaching and training your kids. Why don’t you go find a job? You know you need car funds, college funds, retirement funds, and more not too far down the road.

Don’t ever just rent a house. You waste so much money that way…you may as well throw it away. Why don’t you just rent a house instead of buy so you can move if you ever wanted to without the hassle of buy/sell and profit/loss? And you may not even have yard work to keep up with.

Always vaccinate. Never vaccinate. Well, maybe we should…but on our terms.

Make sure you don’t let your kid have a smart phone…there’s so much bad on it. They get nothing but a good ole flip phone. Train your kids with technology while they are in your care/supervision, so they know how to act and handle it carefully when they are outside of the home.

Now, before you jump on my case…I know EVERY one of these topics have truth to them…good and bad. And I know that we have to do our due diligence and research the good, the bad, and the ugly on it all, and then, after lots of prayer, make a decision that we feel is right for our families. But do you ever get tired of making those decisions? Especially when it comes to your own kids?? I know I am. Allowance or not? Movies or not? This app or that? Vacations or not? These styles or those? Guard them or let them live and learn? This rule or that? College or no college? On and on and on it goes…if you let it, it consumes you daily. Every day, I feel like I am faced with 1,000 (or more) decisions that I’m helping (directly or indirectly) my kids to make…and there isn’t one day that I’ve been confident of those decisions. Especially when I think back to how many “truths” have changed in my lifetime alone.

IT. IS. EXHAUSTING.

It’s no wonder we are crazy!

But, my heart finds solace and rest in knowing that none of these decisions affect the one absolute truth that has and never will change…the love of God. I may make a mess of parenting on a daily…or even an hourly…basis. I may “scar my kids for life” with weird habits, “truths” that change over time, and personality quirks. But, as long as I make sure to live a life for Christ…share Christ and His love with and to my kids…and ultimately do all I can to lead them to their personal salvation in Christ, where they too will follow Him in all of life’s crazy turns, then I’ve succeeded.

NOTHING. ELSE. MATTERS.

So, bring on the craziness, Life. I serve a God who listens and answers my prayers, even the ones from an exhausted, confused mother who has no idea what she’s doing. I’m ready to quit worrying over the little things that are bound to change time and time again, so I can fully focus on the ONE who never changes.

10 Things I’d Tell My 20-year-old Self

marsha0727 — Tue, 01 May 2018 17:52:23 +0000

I’m getting close to that next threshold of ages on surveys…you know, when you can no longer be grouped with that 20-35 group? And, I must admit, it makes me feel old! I’ll be officially closer to 40 than 30. That’s right…I’m almost 36…eek! And in my “old” age, I’ve spent more time lately in retrospect…not living in regret, but thinking of what I want to make sure I teach my daughters as they much-to-quickly grow up in front of my very eyes. So, here’s a few things that came to mind when I considered what things I’d tell my 20-year-old self:

Don’t rush into living buying the “American Dream”…when we got engaged and married, there were things you were just “supposed” to have and do. You were supposed to be working toward buying your first house. You were supposed to have certain pieces of furniture…real china place settings…and so on and so forth. But, looking back, I think of the many “things” we hurriedly purchased or requested as gifts that are seldom (if ever) used. I think of how we so early in our journey together, put ourselves in holes financially that we would end up spending years to get out of…all because we thought that was just “what you do”. Don’t be afraid to live WITHIN your means…even if it is different that what the norm is. Just enjoy life together.
And, since it goes right along with the previous statement… Material things really are just things, and they don’t last. The older I get, the more I realize how little the “things” mean…and how much stress and clutter (physically and emotionally) they add. Be mindful of getting necessities and non-necessities confused. No, it isn’t wrong to have nice things, but don’t try to find happiness and fulfillment in things…you’ll fall short every time.
One of the biggest things I’d tell a “younger” me…Travel abroad while you’re young and not in the midst of parenthood. When I was young and just married, I wanted to hurry to get that “American Dream” style life much too quickly. I wanted a dog…and when I had a dog, I wanted a house…and when I had a house…I wanted a child…and, well, everything changes after that. Looking back, although we were young and in love and growing closer to each other daily, we didn’t give ourselves much time to travel and enjoy the world together. We always planned for those moments…we dream of those moments even now…but those dreams often have to take a side seat to life with kids. I’m not saying that you can’t travel with kids or while you have kids, but I am saying that you have way more responsibilities (physically and financially) once kids are in the picture. So, if you have the chance, don’t rush so fast into that cookie-cutter life you think you should have as a couple. Live a little…see new things…find passions together…don’t run so fast to the next stop on your journey that you forget to enjoy the views along the way.
Stop worrying about what everyone else thinks you should be doing. I’ve always been a people-pleaser…I’ve spent my life trying to please everyone else, even when it made me unhappy…because, well, that is just me. But, in my “old age”, I’ve realized that it’s okay if I’m not doing everything exactly as someone else thinks I should. I’m not going to please everyone ever…and I don’t have to. In life, if I am doing what God has led me to do, then I’m doing exactly what I should be. Is it easy to be different from the crowd? NO. Do I still find myself comparing myself to others? Yes. But, I’m working daily to remember this…and it’s something that even at their young ages, I’m trying to teach my kids.
Make time to learn life skills alongside of your grandparents/parents while you have them able to teach. This is still a hard one for me. I lost my grandmother last year to dementia/Alzheimer’s, and still to this day, there are so many things I wish I had spent more time asking her or learning from her. But you see, when I was young, I couldn’t imagine needing, let alone wanting to know those “old” ways. Then, when I was in my early adult years, I was away at college and then busy starting my own life away from home. And, before I knew it, I had kids and longed for those days to return when I could spend the day with my grandmother and learn, when instead, I was taking care of my own little ones. I don’t think there is ever enough time with your loved ones…and, even had I spent every day with my grandma before her passing, I’d still want more. But, if you do still have grandparents, soak in their stories…ask them about your heritage…learn some of their how-to tricks. Those things are so hard to learn when they are gone. And, I promise you, you will want it one day…one day when it just may be too late to get it.
Parenting isn’t for the faint of heart…it isn’t easy…ever! But it’s single-handedly three of the greatest blessings I’ve ever had in life. It’s full of scary responsibility, and sometimes, I’d love to hide from that responsibility (I think most would say the same). You’ll make a million mistakes…and they are great at keeping you humble in so many ways…but I wouldn’t take anything for my kids and all that they have and are teaching me as they grow up and I grow “old”. The days are sometimes oh so long, but the years are gone in a blink!
Life isn’t easy…and trials…hard times are guaranteed to come. We so often live in a “Hallmark movie” dream world…where there are always happy endings…life just somehow “works out” before the movie ends. But, that’s guaranteed not to be real life. There will be great moments — bask in them…but there will also be sad ones…challenging ones…incomprehensible ones. And you aren’t always going to be prepared for them in the ways that you feel you should be, because you never see them coming. But, I remind myself often…God has never failed me…and I fail myself often…so there is no reason for me to ever question our journey, but just learn from it and find joy in it. It doesn’t have to be easy to be enjoyable. Often, the hardest journeys in our life have been the very things that brought us the closest to each other and to God.
Be willing to forgive…over and over again. We are human…we live life with humans…and we are never going to be perfect. People have and will continue to hurt you, intentionally and unintentionally. Make a decision now to be forgiving of others…again and again and again. Do it for yourself. It will affect others, but it will affect you in ways you cannot even fathom.
Marriage isn’t 50/50…it’s 100/100. This is one time that math doesn’t work. If you only put 50% effort into your marriage and your spouse only puts 50% effort into it, even though it adds up mathematically to 100%, it truly only equals a half effort at best…and that isn’t enough to survive, let alone thrive in a lifelong marriage relationship. Marriage is 100% from both…giving it your best…your all…every day. And, if you do that…you’ll both see that effort pay off in ways even movies couldn’t dream of portraying.
Live with NO REGRETS. We all know this, but sometimes you get those sobering reminders (I’ve had quite a few lately)…life isn’t guaranteed…tomorrow, even the next hour isn’t a sure thing. If you love someone, make sure they know it. Don’t go to bed angry…make amends as soon as you can…even if your pride has to take a hit. Don’t put off snuggles, pillow talk, bedtime stories, or sunset walks til tomorrow…none of us know how long God has planned for us to have here on earth with our families. Make time to live in the now, seizing the moments we have today, and never give yourself any reason to look back with regret.

So…this isn’t an “exhaustive” list by any stretch. But as I think on life now, and things that I’ve learned over the last almost 16 years, these are the things that stick out the most. What would you say to your 20-year-old self?

The Mom Balancing Act: How do YOU do it?

marsha0727 — Sun, 07 May 2017 21:30:00 +0000

Am I the only one that struggles daily with balance in life? I’m pretty sure this started with kids…Katie, to be exact…almost 11 years ago now. How do I keep the house clean, but still make meals for the family? How do I “cherish” my time home with her, but still manage the laundry/homeschooling/cooking, etc.? Pretty sure I’ve tried every book out there…every planner…every “routine” (for cooking, for cleaning, for sleeping…for, well, you name it!) And, when I’ve asked those veteran moms that I look up to, I’m pretty sure the answer has always been something to the effect of “remember what’s most important now…it’s a season…we’ve all been there, but it’ll get better…”

Now, I have almost 11 years under my belt (that’s crazy, scary, and even a little depressing!)…three kids instead of one…and, somehow, here I am asking myself basically those same questions! Why can’t I keep my house organized & clean from being the health department’s worst nightmare?! How can I enjoy my much too quickly fleeting time with my kids, when I also need to keep all of the clothes washed, groceries bought (and prepared), school work/activities taken care of, etc.? And how in this world do moms find the time or energy to spend time doing something for themselves?? Sadly, I feel so overwhelmed many days that I would rather just go to sleep and pretend to ignore the ever growing to-do list than to attempt it. It’s literally the 1 step forward 10 steps back feeling.

Now, don’t get me wrong…I’ve figured out how to survive over the years…and some days are way better than others. I’ve learned to let a lot (if not all) of my perfectionism go out the window…my expectations are for sure lower than they were when I first became a mom…I’ve learned that it’s okay to do the simple short-cuts (sometimes sandwiches or cereal nights are ok!)…I’ve learned that if I rotate well enough (one day to focus on groceries….one day to tackle all of the laundry…one day to quickly “hit” all of the house with a basic cleaning…one day to just be out, playing with the kids), then I can at least keep up appearances of having it together. And that’s with the consistent help/understanding of my husband! (I cannot imagine how single moms feel…) But inside, it still feels as if I am juggling a thousand balls and waiting for not one, but all of them, to come crashing down all around me. No matter the small “survivor” victories I obtain, I find myself still longing for the balance that I just can’t seem to completely find.

So, I’m asking again…what am I missing?! How do you “veteran moms” do it? And how to you do it an maintain the joy of being a keeper of the home while trying to balance all of the “balls” life so often throws your way?

YOU. ARE. ENOUGH.

marsha0727 — Tue, 03 May 2016 01:45:00 +0000

As this week began {yes, I do realize it is even now only Monday}, I found myself…

emotional…

missing my closest friend, whom I had just said my “farewell’s” to, before they flew out of our country to follow God’s calling on their lives to be missionaries…

fighting back the tears I had pushed aside all weekend…

frustrated that no matter how much I tried, I could not finish a task before 10 more were added…

feeling like survival-mode was the best I could do…

thinking of the checkbook that was unbalanced…the laundry that was overflowing…the dust that was accummulating faster than I could wipe it clean…projects only half-done…a daughter who’s broken heart I couldn’t comfort…school project deadlines looming…groceries that hadn’t been picked up (or even planned)…

my head and my heart were in overload…

staring at my sink full of dirty dishes, as if I could will them away if only I stared long enough…

drowning in an ocean of undone’s, can’t do’s, and really don’t want to’s…

and in that moment…

the gentle, unjudging, voice full of love and concern of my husband, pulled me close and whispered in my ear…

YOU.

ARE.

ENOUGH.

That’s all he said. That’s all it took. I let a few tears escape on his shoulders, and I moved on…I moved ahead…knowing that when he saw me, he wasn’t seeing the failure that I was sure I was. His eyes weren’t filtered through judgement and unrealistic expectations, but of love. And, you know, I know my Heavenly Father’s grace, mercy, and love surpasses even my husband.

So, in case you haven’t heard it…or heard it in quite some time…you need to know…

YOU.

ARE.

ENOUGH.

The Reckless Love of God | Book Review

marsha0727 — Wed, 23 Sep 2015 16:13:00 +0000

I have thoroughly enjoyed reading Alex Early’s “The Reckless Love of God” book. I’m still reading it, actually! This book is not a light read…don’t expect to sit down and read through it gaining tidbits of challenging words and then quickly moving on to another book. This book is filled full of meaty, thought-provoking chapters, that you really have to stop and “chew on” for a bit before continuing. Though it is set up in relatively short chapters, I have chosen to use it as more of a devotional type book, reading one chapter at a time. There is so much to think about in each chapter, that you really need to stop and meditate on the Biblical principles presented before moving on.

We all know the song “Jesus Loves Me”…we’ve probably known it our entire lives. But, do we fully grasp it’s meaning to us personally? Probably not. God’s love isn’t just a statement made to give us that “happy” feeling. It’s real…and found in every facet of our lives. He knows us, feels our pains and hurts, and even suffers for us. To go back to (or to learn for the first time) even a small portion of the magnitude of God’s unending and unconditional love for us is life changing, to say the least.

Early’s book does just that. What does God’s word say about Jesus? What about his love? What do the Gospel authors say of Christ? Early goes to God’s word to explain what Jesus loves me truly means. He also uses personal stories, where he is honest and transparent in sharing his feelings and how/what God taught him through those circumstances. He also uses quotes from well-known speakers/authors to encourage and challenge throughout the book. I love the quotes set apart throughout the book, and how they highlight a major point being made in that chapter.

This book is worth your time to read…but be sure to set aside more time to read it than you would typically spend on a thin book. It’s an academic book with much to say about the true love of God. Get it, read it one step at a time, and let God use it to draw you in closer to Him!

I received this book for free from Bethany House for this review. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 : “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”

Nothing better than an antique book

marsha0727 — Mon, 17 Aug 2015 15:51:40 +0000

And she went on planning to herself how she would manage it. ‘They must go by the carrier,’ she thought; ‘and how funny it’ll seem, sending presents to one’s own feet! And how odd the directions will look!

Oh dear, what nonsense I’m talking!’

Just then her head struck against the roof of the hall: in fact she was now more than nine feet high, and she at once took up the little golden key and hurried off to the garden door.

Poor Alice! It was as much as she could do, lying down on one side, to look through into the garden with one eye; but to get through was more hopeless than ever: she sat down and began to cry again.

‘You ought to be ashamed of yourself,’ said Alice, ‘a great girl like you,’ (she might well say this), ‘to go on crying in this way! Stop this moment, I tell you!’ But she went on all the same, shedding gallons of tears, until there was a large pool all round her, about four inches deep and reaching half down the hall.

‘You ought to be ashamed of yourself, a great girl like you, to go on crying in this way! Stop this moment, I tell you!’

THIS IS A TITLE

After a time she heard a little pattering of feet in the distance, and she hastily dried her eyes to see what was coming. It was the White Rabbit returning, splendidly dressed, with a pair of white kid gloves in one hand and a large fan in the other: he came trotting along in a great hurry, muttering to himself as he came, ‘Oh! the Duchess, the Duchess! Oh! Won’t she be savage if I’ve kept her waiting!’ Alice felt so desperate that she was ready to ask help of any one; so, when the Rabbit came near her, she began, in a low, timid voice, ‘If you please, sir—’ The Rabbit started violently, dropped the white kid gloves and the fan, and scurried away into the darkness as hard as he could go.

Everyday Moments | July 10, 2015

marsha0727 — Fri, 10 Jul 2015 14:03:00 +0000

Life so quickly and easily gets out of control…busy…trying to live for the next appointment/ stage/ age/ trip {or insert your own word here}. In our LIFE Groups on Sunday mornings at Somerville Baptist Church, we are going through a study called “Simplify”, and it has touched on just this thing…enjoying each moment while you have it. Not being so busy or with such wrong priorities that you miss out on the blessings God has given you RIGHT NOW. So, here are a few “everyday moments” from today, as I recount, remember, and realize all that God has given me and done for me in my blessed life!

Outside my window…

I am thinking…of what I’m going to fix for dinner {you know I’m not organized enough these days to have it all planned out, right?!}

I am thankful for…FRIDAYS — the official “start” of a {mostly} uninterrupted, non-work time with Mark and the kids…together!

From the kids’ rooms…I see Katie and Austin working diligently together to design their newest Lego fortress creation {they are planning to enter a Lego competition with this new fortress.}

From the kitchen…Addison is pulling at my ankles wanting “up” as I try to finish preparing breakfast before our swim day at Granny’s.

I am going…to take the kids to Granny’s to enjoy a little fun in the sun {and pool}, since we are only a month away from school resuming.

I am reading…nothing currently, but I have one en-route called “I’m Happy for You (Sort of…Not Really)” by Kay Wills Wyma, and I can’t wait to read it and tell you about it soon!

I am hoping…to get that “Body Pump” class completed for this week {since I should have already completed one class this week already}. Gotta start somewhere, right?!

I am hearing…“Mamamamamaaaaaaa” following me everywhere I go {{grins}}

Around the house…things are looking more and more like a playroom, in every room, thanks to Addison’s new toys, her ability to leave toys in random places, and {maybe} due to the fact that we still haven’t moved her into a true “room” yet. But, I’m learning {or should I say, relearning} to overlook those toys and enjoy these moments while I have them. How boring would my house look if it always appeared like it came from a BH&G magazine?!

One of my favorite things…is getting to end a nice {and often crazy} day with some {most-of-the-time} uninterrupted talk or down time with my hubby. It’s easy to get over-tired as a stay-at-home mom, giving all you have all day, leaving nothing for your husband as evening comes…I know from experience…but I’ve learned that no matter how hard it is each day, it is critical for you to save some of your sanity, your energy, and your love for your husband every day. He needs it, and so do you!

A few plans for the week…are going to the Chick-Fil-A cow appreciation {aka dress like a cow for free food day}, gearing up for the kids’ first trip to Six Flags {earned by reading}, and then packing the older kiddos for some much wanted time with their Nana and Pawpaw before school begins.

Here is a picture I’m sharing…Addison has found that she has a new love for cookies!

First, Fast, & with a SMILE!

marsha0727 — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 16:38:00 +0000

Austin and his nursery teacher’s conversation just before leaving:

Austin: “I obeyed tonight.”
Teacher: “Yes, you did obey!”

Austin: “I obeyed fast!”
Teacher: “Yes, you did good.”

Austin: “And I smiled…”

This may not mean a lot to most of you, but to a Mom who has been working diligently to teach him what true obedience is, this means the world! All of those days I thought he was paying me no attention…all of those “talks” we’ve had to have…we’re seeing progress! He is not only memorizing our obedience rule (obey first, obey fast, and obey with a smile/right attitude), but he’s repeating it, and he’s applying it!

This Mommy is a little excited that I was able to hear that little conversation. A little encouragement just at the right time…

Summing up Life| Parenting Woes & Encouragement

marsha0727 — Thu, 12 May 2011 12:22:00 +0000

A friend shared this article the other day, and it was just the parenting encouragement that I needed. I encourage you all to read Kevin DeYoung’s “Parenting 001” article, as well.

As for our house…the following excerpt pretty much sums up our life with the kids right now {in a humorous, but oh so true, way}:

Excerpt from “Parenting 001” by Kevin DeYoung

I don’t consider myself a particularly good parent. I was asked to speak a few years ago at some church’s conference. They wanted me to talk about parenting. I said I didn’t have much to say so they should ask someone else (which they did). My kids are probably not as crazy as they seem to me (at least that’s what I keep telling myself anyway), but if I ever write a book on parenting I’m going to call it The Inmates Are Running the Asylum.

There are already scores of books on parenting, many of them quite good. I’ve read several of them and have learned much. I really do believe in gospel-powered parenting and shepherding my child’s heart. I want conversations like this:

Me : What’s the matter son?
Child : I want that toy and he won’t give it to me!
Me : Why do you want the toy?
Child : Because it will be fun to play with.
Me : Do you think he is having fun playing with the toy right now?
Child : Yes.
Me : Would it make him sad to take the toy away?
Child : I guess so.
Me : And do you like to make your brother sad?
Child : No.
Me : You know, Jesus tells us to love our neighbor as ourselves. That means loving your brother the way he would want to be loved. Since Jesus loves us so much, we have every reason to love others–even your brother. Would you like to love him by letting him play with the toy for awhile?
Child : Yes I would daddy.

I try that. Really I do. But here’s what actually happens:

Me: What’s the matter son?
Child : I want that toy and he won’t give it to me!
Me : Why do you want the toy?
Child : I don’t know.
Me : What’s going on in your heart when you desire that toy?
Child : I don’t know.
Me : Think about it son. Use your brain. Don’t you know something?
Child : I guess I just want the toy.
Me : Obviously. But why?
Child : I don’t know.
Me : Fine. [Mental note: abandon “why” questions and skip straight to leading questions.] Do you think he is having fun playing with the toy right now?
Child : No.
Me : Really?! He’s not having fun? Then why does he want that toy in the first place?
Child : Because he’s mean.
Me : Have you ever considered that maybe you are being mean by trying to rip the toy from his quivering little hands?
Child : I don’t know.
Me : What do you know?
Child : I don’t know!
Me : Nevermind. [I wonder how my brilliant child can know absolutely nothing at this moment.] Well, I think taking the toy from him will make your brother sad. Do you like to make him sad?
Child : I don’t know.
Me : [Audible sigh.]
Child : He makes me sad all the time!
Me : Well, I’m getting sad right now with your attitude! [Pause, think, what would Paul Tripp do? Thinking . . . .thinking . . . .man, I can’t stop thinking of that mustache. This isn’t working. Let’s just go right to the Jesus part.] You know, Jesus wants us to love each other.
Child : I don’t know.
Me : I didn’t ask you a question!
Child : [Pause.] Can I have some fruit snacks?
Me: No, you can’t have fruit snacks. We are talking about the gospel. Jesus loves us and died for us. He wants you to love your brother too.
Child : So?
Me : So give him the toy back!

Then I lunge for the toy and the child runs away. I tell him to come back here this instant and threaten to throw the toy in the trash. I recommit myself to turning down speaking engagements on parenting.

As funny as it is to read, this scenario happens more often than I can count in our household right now…especially with our oldest. While I find humor in it, and even a little comfort in knowing I’m not the only one who deals with this, I also must seek to continue to be the godly parent that I know I need to be for my children. So, I’m praying for more patience…more wisdom…and more of God’s wonderful grace!

The Stuff…

marsha0727 — Thu, 03 Feb 2011 20:45:00 +0000

My mom shared this song with me today, and it hit home for me in so many ways. So…I’m sharing it with you to see if you can relate to it, too.

There are so many times that I get frustrated at little the little things in life that I see as inconvenient…but God uses each part of our lives to mold us into who we need to be for His plan in our life to be possible. I am truly so blessed for “this stuff” in my life…even when I don’t understand it.

This Is The Stuff

by Francesca Battistelli

I lost my keys in the great unknown
And call me please ‘Cuz I can’t find my phone

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that’s getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I’m blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You’re doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

45 in a 35
Sirens and fines while I’m running behind
Whoa

So break me of impatience
Conquer my frustrations
I’ve got a new appreciation
It’s not the end of the world
Oh Oh Oh

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff
Someone save me
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I’m blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
And I’ve gotta trust You know exactly what You’re doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

Oh Oh Oh Oh
This is the stuff You use

I lost my keys in the great unknown
And call me please ‘Cuz I can’t find my phone

45 in a 35
Sirens and fines while I’m running behind
Whoa

So break me of impatience
Conquer my frustrations
I’ve got a new appreciation
It’s not the end of the world
Oh Oh Oh

Oh Oh Oh Oh
This is the stuff You use